Or maybe I will. You needn't read any further if you aren't interested.
I will never make any money or score any free stuff with my blog. I just don't have it in me to exert the effort required. And while I do not disparage my own views on things, I don't have a particular point of view on a particular topic or two (niches, if you will) that justifies regular opining from me. My life is not curious or interesting, nor am I particularly funny. No, I just happen to like writing random things out now and again, and a small handful of people don't mind reading it.
So is there a point?
Actually, this post expresses it fairly well. With pie charts!
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I told you that I wrote a very long follow-up post about finding a new church. And I told you I was too shy to post it. And there it still sits in my drafts, unpublished. Something in my guts doesn't feel good about it. I had my husband read it, and he wasn't too keen on it either. (Full disclosure, he isn't particularly understanding of the medium of blogs in general, but he tries to be supportive of me.) The post sounded pedantic. It reduced something very complex that ultimately ought to be the province of the Holy Spirit down to a few do's and don'ts.
The truth is, I can be quite certain of the hypothetical situations of other people's lives, all the while being completely lost in the concrete reality of my own life.
The heart is deceitful above all thingsMy husband and I have some sorting out to do with the Holy Spirit. We have to do some heart-examining. And the question is, do we wait for the Spirit's conviction before making this decision? Only a very few times in my life have I felt strong conviction of God's will - have I not felt it more often because I am too hasty and do not wait on Him?
and desperately sick;
who can understand it?
6 comments:
Some of us appreciate the careful way that you think and write about things Amy, and the way you acknowledge opposing views or weaknesses/potential flaws in your own position, even when you do feel strong enough to take a stand and be pedantic! Don't post about your church search if you and your husband don't feel like it is appropriate to share. But I (and probably other of your readers) would be interested sometime to see even a reworked version of that post - searching for a church home is something many of us have done or will do and it's helpful to hear how others process that often unsettling time.
Personally I think it's rare that "God's Will" is made 100% clear to most of us ahead of time when it comes to decisions like choosing a church. Usually the best I can say is that I have some measure of peace about a decision, or I feel permission/don't feel like I'm hearing a clear "no" but rarely do I feel like I'm discerning a definite "do this and NOT that." More often it's a matter of choosing between permissible options, all of which have flaws and strengths, and in any of which God can and will use me/us. His "will" seems more often to have to do with whether I am walking with Him and serving others, and less about the particular setting in which I am doing it. Then in hindsight I often feel as though I can see His hand in the whole process, and I wonder whether the one choice I made WAS in fact THE right choice, or whether I'd feel the same way if I'd chosen differently (with the intent of honoring God) and God had guided and used and shaped and molded me in THAT context. I kind of think it is usually the latter.
So i actually remember you talking about God's will in another post and me commenting on it. :) This might be flawed but when I am listening to the holy spirit and God's will I try to pray a lot about the decision and talk to people very close to me. My husband,parents and sometimes a priest or spiritual advisor. THEN if after taking and praying I move forward. If all goes smoothly then I feel I am doing God's will but if there are bumps in the road and if feels like things won't work out then maybe it isnt God's will.
I love your blog and how honest you are and what you talk about be it serious and religious or what your cutie is doing now. Keep it up.
So i actually remember you talking about God's will in another post and me commenting on it. :) This might be flawed but when I am listening to the holy spirit and God's will I try to pray a lot about the decision and talk to people very close to me. My husband,parents and sometimes a priest or spiritual advisor. THEN if after taking and praying I move forward. If all goes smoothly then I feel I am doing God's will but if there are bumps in the road and if feels like things won't work out then maybe it isnt God's will. I love your blog and how honest you are and what you talk about be it serious and religious or what your cutie is doing now. Keep it up.
Amy, just got through watching The Crossing's Jeremiah Series - thought you might like it as well. I have enjoyed reading your blog.
http://www.wcrossing.org/default.aspx?page=3699&item=196
Amy, just got through watching The Crossing's Jeremiah Series - thought you might like it as well. I have enjoyed reading your blog. http://www.wcrossing.org/default.aspx?page=3699&item=196
Amy, just got through watching The Crossing's Jeremiah Series - thought you might like it as well. I have enjoyed reading your blog. http://www.wcrossing.org/default.aspx?page=3699&item=196
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